A small village

On December 26, 2016 I officially started this blog. The intention was to prove that there was humorous side to mental and physical anguish. Not an easy task, but I like a challenge. Last night I realized that I’m steadily growing in followers, nothing dramatic but impressive to me considering I don’t advertise.

It reminded me of a saying- If you make one person happy every day in five years you would have brighten up a small village.

Thank you for being my village.

Drug induced coma

I’m in the process of lowering one of my medications, since it’s causing the auditory hallucinations and many other known side effects – sleepiness being one of the other problems I’m facing.

I was eagerly surprised that I woke up so early this morning – thinking I could get somethings done but alas life was put on hold again an hour and a half later…. zzz.

This is crippling

I have found a way to explain my audio hallucinations – I can’t tell if the sound is in my head or out. So if I start singing along to a song because I think I hear it on the radio when it’s really playing in my head – that is a problem. When I hear my dog whinny to come in and nobody else does – that’s a problem. The fact that I have to ask other “did you hear that” is something I didn’t expect to do until I was old and senile.

It can always be worse

What is better? To be, survive or to live?

I was reminded today that I’m just surviving and not really living. I know I’m not at the best but for the time being it is the best for me. When I was younger I always felt that standing still was just as bad as going backwards- now that I have come to terms with my Bipolar I understand that staying level although it may not be a high is surely better than being low.

Road Trip – day 2

I have done things – things that I have not done in ages – things that I had to pay for – but it was worth it.

We got to go 4 wheeling in places that didn’t have phone coverage but I got pictures that I will share soon. I even got to drive. Mostly to show-up my uncle who didn’t think I could do it. I would like to see him do as good a job getting a F350 where I did today. The sun felt wonderful – it was much needed for my depression but was a little too much for my eyes. I ended up with a migraine at the end of the day.

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