Think on it

I’m getting ready to expand my blog. The videos I posted were a trial run for me to get over the nervousness. Believe it or not I use to be really out going- that’s how I got my man lol. Now a days getting out of bed is hard but I still try to be social by interacting with others while I play games or I’m on social media, but even on there I get anxiety and want to hide away.

So the question is – Do you find that it’s easier to interact with people one on one in person or can you let it all hang out when you are hidden behind a screen?

I can honestly say I’m more of a one on one, but look out – I don’t hold back on the sass.

Camping part 2

Day two started like any normal day. Wake up, force yourself out of bed (mostly because you have to pee but it’s too cold to go to the outhouse), eat breakfast and go about your day. For us that required us to start weighing out our packs to make sure we didn’t hurt our horses. It took about two hours to get everything set up, horses saddled, packed and then loaded.

And then hell broke loose all over camp! All I could do was sit there and watch as Whiskey threw everything all around the corral, down the road, around the trailer and through our camp!

What do you do? Kill him or start over and try to make something out of the ashes? Horse soup wasn’t on the agenda so we regrouped and went exploring. Finally found a lake that we have been looking for years- the trail map was so out of date. Yes the day was exhausting but we still took the high road (less traveled) and found some peace.

Check out the Camping Vlog on Facebook

Camping

Our camping trip was like my bipolar episodes- up, down, and all over the place! I’ve already shared some good moments on Instagram and have posted the “First Night Vlog” on Facebook.

Getting their had me having meltdowns at every store we stop in but you can tell by that evening that I’m very comfortable with being a hermit in the mountains. lol

Running Away

Dirk has talked me into this high mountain trip into the Unitas. I don’t know how I’m going to do but for kicks I’m bringing my GoPro. Maybe I’ll get the courage to show you something.

I have post set up to go till I get back on Wednesday but until then please keep us in your prayers. I’ve already had two meltdowns and we just got started.

Overwhelmed

I’m doubting myself and the purpose of this blog. I wanted to help others find the humorous side and now I’m deep in my own depression. In looking at my options it’s becoming very overwhelming and confusing. Am I really helping anyone? Have I connect with any of you? Do I have the right kind of site that can make a difference? Does anyone really care about laughter and happiness while being bipolar or are they all stuck in their own crises. I admit that since going down I haven’t been that involved in the outside world. In fact I have barely gotten out of my house, into my one acre yard let alone the rest of the property. Dirk is trying to talk me into going on a camping trip over the weekend and it’s freaking me out.

It hasn’t helped that I’ve also been overwhelmed by the prospect of updating my social media. I found out today that someone who started using my branding ‘Ramblings of a Bipolar Mind” after me is getting a better response than me. Now the thought of having to change and start over is making me sad, mad and annoyed!